Learning as I go

In the last few weeks I have not written anything here. In a sense, it has been on purpose. During this time I’ve made a few speeches and written a few farewells but beyond that, outside of my personal journal, I’ve not written. I usually write to express myself and talk about what’s happening so I don’t keep things bottled inside. Talking or writing also helps me better examine things and see parts I’d not have noticed otherwise. I also write to share knowledge and ideas, and because I like talking/writing sometimes.

In the two weeks I neglected to write here, I’ve had to deal with my thoughts. I know not everything is good to be said even if they are thought and not every thought is worth considering. Hence, I’ve kept to myself while I deal with things my way. Some of those discarded thoughts were on various little things and annoyances that happened and my mind raced off thinking of how I would put them all on paper. Writing would have been a good way to process and move on but in cases like those thinking of writing and the words I’d use was usually enough.

Rather than expend energy on certain things I prefer to see the humor and lessons in them. If I quit complaining a bit and examine logically and truthfully my experiences then many times I can see where I went wrong, that some things are not worth pursuing, and the value of waiting or being quite a bit. Also, I can see the interesting things I can learn from and about the people around me. Many times I may wonder about certain things or people but keep my concern to myself, which can be good, but not always. Think on it, what’s a smile if it’s not shared; why discard valuable things when your friend could benefit if you spoke to each other.

So I’m learning. I don’t always get it right but I’m trying. Just like people tend to advise not to post things for the sake of posting but be considerate, I’m telling myself the same thing with writing. After all, what I write can hurt or harm and I have to be careful of my motives. Pushing the “post” button from a place of anonymity is easy but I still have to live with myself and be responsible for what I put out there. So, until I next write, I’ll be here learning to live wisely and find the humor and lessons in life’s everyday experiences.