Reflection

As darkness falls over the land tonight, I sit at my little table and think. There’s a lot on my mind tonight. There are thoughts of what happens next, where am I, what have I been doing, do I have the discipline for the next phase, what have I been glossing over that’s in front of me, how do I make the best of what I have while planning for the future. I know I’m blessed. It shows in the many opportunities I have each day to learn something new, to positively touch and impact lives, to live in peace, to be surrounded by wonderful nature, to live in good health. Yet with all this, something calls me.

For a few evenings I’ve watched dusk settle over the mountains. Watching the day end or begin is something I’ve liked doing for years now though sometimes I don’t always make the opportunity or appreciate it as much as I should. There is something majestic about seeing the sun shine brightly as it stands just above the top of the mountain before it mellows and disappears over it painting the clouds beautifully as they dance across the sky. It’s wonderful to watch and it does something to my heart. The dawn is special too, just watching things come to life or appear in a different light as the darkness lifts off them.

Growing up, there were always set chores to be completed in the early mornings before getting ready for school and in the evenings before it got dark. Those days had their own issues but looking back I’m not sure I understood those days at all but I suppose it’s natural that children don’t understand or notice everything. Occasionally, I will be doing something and look up or a feeling comes on that at this time of the evening I’d have been doing such and such. I smile sometimes – a bit sadly at those memories because I’ll never have similar situations to share with this younger generation.

Perhaps I will though, right, since no one knows the future and sometimes that life still calls me. I’ve moved so far away from that part of my life it seems a little foreign. I don’t really see how it’s possible or how it would work with some of my other dreams. What I can see is that I have a great opportunity now but it won’t last forever so I need to either plan ahead or hope things will naturally fall into place the way they should. Whatever happens though I want to be at least in some way prepared as I’m not a great fan of surprises.

It’s completely dark outside now. For a while, all will be covered over as if buried or planted. What’s left undone today must remain that way. Sometimes in the light of day we realize that it was better that certain things went undone. Dawn comes really early on this mountain top and the summer weather seems un-summer-like to me. Soon the leaves will change colour and everything will be transformed then go to sleep before the snows return. Life on the mountain seems fast so I know I must make the best of it.

Wishing the best for you too, where ever in the world you may be.